Sunday

I see light and I feel hope! I feel and see glimpses of God's goodness in the midst of my pain. Today I started thinking seriously how He could redeem this situation and I started thinking about doing ministry to the brokenhearted and the poor. So I going to start praying for opportunities to minister to the brokenhearted and the poor.

I believe with my whole heart that Satan destroyed my relationship. But I also believe with my whole heart that God IS good and He will redeem and make something good come from it. Look at what He did with Joseph and His Son and so many others...

God told me the Monday before the breakup, "See the former things have taken place, and new things I declare; before they spring into being I announce them to you." Isaiah 42:9

In the midst of my pain, I want to see God at work. I want to intentionally look for ways He is working. And then I want to worship. Satan wants me to think horrible thoughts and I've let him, but those thoughts are like him: they seek to destroy me, they are lies and they seek to steal my walk with God.

I hope one day to be able to say with Joseph, You meant this for evil but God meant this for good. And here's what He did...whatever it is. I want this to be a testimony to Him in the midst of ruins. And He is glorified.

I had a great phone conversation that blessed me earlier this week in which a sister in Christ shared her breakup story and how she got through it. I told her emphatically, "You have blessed me." I want to be able to do that with someone.

Then this experience will be redeemed and good will come out of it. This experience is also making me want to fight. I HATE Satan and what he has done. So I am praying for redemption and beauty to rise from the ashes.

God is in the business of restoration, reconciliation and redemption. He makes streams in the deserts and crooked paths smooth.